Harvey Goldner
"When I was a child, my lesbian aunt, Suzanne, would spend a week or so every summer at my family's vacation home on Lake Wenatchee, here in Washington State. This was before the era of motorcycle helmets, and Suzanne would arrive on her blue Bugatti, her red hair streaming, flaming. While tossing back straight shots of my father's precious scotch, she would mesmerize my twin brother Phil and  I by reading aloud her favorite poets, chiefly Elizabeth Bishop. Eventually, my brother Phil became
an alcoholic & was killed in a motorcycle accident, and I began writing poems."

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Anna Akhmatova Takes Us to the Moon

for Neal Ellis, il miglior elefante mistico

Harvey Goldner

        The room is as dark as an elevator
        whose light has burnt out.  Like trash, our jungle
        jabber litters the room.  Then from the center
        she speaks, and a stream of amber impossible
        light flows like smoke from her mouth.  This
        stream of amber impossible light forms and feeds
        a growing cloud, a floating lake of light,
        that illuminates only the things it caresses.
        Finally shadowless, our room begins to rise.
         
        Now our room is rising, and now she is
        working hard, rocking, grinding her voice against
        gravity.  A happy strain appears on her face—
        the same happy strain that appears on the face
        of a good man who is changing a flat
        tire beside the freeway while his wife and
        kids sit quiet for once in the car,
        and the good man knows that the silent prayers
        of his family are all that stand between
        his naked ass and the murderous wheel—the steel
        and speed—of the rush hour traffic machine.

        We begin to feed the poetess with our
        attention: the bellies of our hearts pump
        power into the belly of her heart until
        at last the room breaks loose, and we
        float free from the pull of our
        birthplace, our graveplace—the earth.

        A good smell rises in the amber room,
        better than bread baking or roses crushed
        in your fist, better even than the aroma
        of tobacco to a sailor.  It's the same perfume
        which rises from the heads of small children
        who've been playing outside in the summer
        dust, whenever you bend over to pick
        them up—an odor whose power
        can keep your heart pumping forever.
         
        Now the voice of the poetess darkens—
        black liquid syllables pulse from her mouth—
        and the amber impossible light is forced
        into the walls, ceiling and floor of the room,
        transforming them into clear glass.

        We look out, we look back from our dark glass
        box in space, to see the earth—a turquoise stone
        tied on a string and twirled by a small red girl
        who laughs as she skips to her grandfather's house.

        It's time for a ten-minute break.  The poetess
        lights up a small cigar, and we light up our
        cigarettes—our Camels and Lucky Strikes.
        She is our queen, our big queen firefly,
        and she teaches our cigarettes how to dance.
        Before the ten minutes are up, using only
        the glow of her small cigar, she fiddles
        the complete Brandenburg Concertos.
        She plays with a country twang.

        Our break is over, the moon looms huge,
        the poetess fires up her voice again—all
        engines, all chakras, wide open and throbbing.
        We make a wild wide slide to the right.
        Bearing down to brake us, the poetess strips
        her voice, turns it inside out, crying deep
        like a woman in labor.  We lend a heart
        and our ship touches down with a thud
        in the dust on the dark side of the moon.

        It's as dark here on the dark side of the moon
        as a rainy night in Mississippi or
        Siberia.  We follow the poetess out of the room.
        All we can see is the glow of her earrings—
        two silver triangles dangling from each
        of her ears.  These earrings lead us over
        a rise.  Dead moon dust is up to our ankles

        In the hollow below we see torchlight, we
        see gnomes—black, ancient, wise as Pygmies.
        They push wheelbarrows on plywood tracks—
        red wheelbarrows filled with rainwater.
        The rainwater's dumped into ditches of dust.
        Moon mud is made, rich and delicious.
        From this matrix of moon mud, animals of
        many colors emerge, mammals, all of them
        strange to the earth, except for the elephants.

        It's obvious which elephant's in charge here:
        he's got that executive aura.
        Our poetess approaches him, curtsies, bows.
        From between the eyes of the elephant king
        a beam of light comes slowly, tinged with pink,
        as thick as a firehose.  From between the eyes
        of the poetess, a green gardenhose of
        light comes slowly.  These beams entwine
        like snakes until the exchange of news
        is complete, and then they slowly retract.

        Flatcars stand on a narrow gauge railroad track.
        On them are cages containing rudimentary
        human souls.  Outside of each cage is a teacher
        wearing a circus clown suit.  Their ancient,
        Asian, yellow faces have been painted white.
        They teach the raw souls the ways of the
        moon—how to survive, how to serve here.

        These rudimentary human souls
        look just like us, look blank, look stunned,
        like a man does when he realizes
        that his pocket's been picked.